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|| 2002-12-24 ||
I made a choice in my life, and i stuck with it...now i'm waiting for the results.The choice.. To get out of the military any way possible. I think it went well. I came up with a plan.. carefully followed it, with little flaw.
I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder. Do i have it. I don't really know. I have chest pain.. i think its anxiety related.. meaning.. i hate my life and so does my body.
I took a trip to see a psychiatrist. She said she thinks i have personality disorder. That sounds fucked up- it basically means i'm not fit for military.. that i have adjusted the way i should have.. (i haven't been brain washed)...
I'm still on the island of Crete, Greece. I love the island.. i love my friends.. the military aspect still sucks.
When I get out.. which is a matter of time (i'm waiting for the psychiatrists' results) I'm going home to go to college, which the military is still going to pay for.. and they are are going to pay me $700 for the rest of my life. Not so bad of a deal eh?
How am i feeling.. anxious.
Always anxious.
