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|| 2002-04-19 ||
It's almost as if i have become numb to the way things are now. I really don't like these people, and i'm really starting to not give a shit. Everything is fucked up and i don't really care what anyone thinks..i have 2 and a half years after this year and i'm done. I'll be successful without all this bullshit. I'll have all my old friends back and i won't have a care in the world.I'm not living in a dream world, when i want to do something i do it. I think i've proven that one too many times.
Yesterday someone told me that i am an unhappy person who needs to admit to myself and everyone else who i am. I've done that before, i'm not really hiding anything that people don't already know. i told them i don't hang out with these people because i don't like them. i was telling the truth and he called me a liar. He doesn't know me and i reminded him of that several times and he just kept on talking.
He doesn't know anything, he doesn't even know himself. He says i try to look for a deeper meaning behind things so much. He's right. But not about the too much thing, thats just a part of who i am.
I'm not going to stop analyzing things, ever. I look for a deeper meaning behind things because i get bored extremely easy. I'm surprised i'm not a freakin serial killer.
I'll continue doing what i'm doing, and all the other people can do what they do, just do it right and do it with honesty. The bullshit is starting to get old.
